December Dilemmas...

Continuing with My Black and White Theme, I am going to be slightly philosophical today, but I promise I will most definitely try not to sound preachy! :P

As 2010 comes to an end, today that is the 29th of December should, I believe be set aside to remind us that there are still a couple more lessons we need to learn before we can finally welcome the New Year. Are we going let our 2010 go by just like that? :)

This past December has been a bit of a rollercoaster with some good times mixed with some challenges. I think this can be mostly attributed to us feeling the need to complete things, finish things before the New Year. I definitely feel so; I am in a mad rush to finished unfinished business. Be it catching up with people, whom I have not been entirely cordial with, or be letting bygones be bygones, everything and so many things in my hands and such little time… :)

Well, this is to be expected of any month, but there's a good chance that these challenges seem more, well, Challenging this month, more than usual. Tempting though it may be to allow these events to frustrate Us, its better I think to keep in mind that this is the Universe's version of tough love.

A lot of my close friends are suffering from the December; a few of My Besties are in unbelievable predicaments. All unrelated problems yet extremely related in ways that can expressed by me at the moment! A little more thought into it and I assure you I will have an answer to it! :P

I feel that having the ability to look these challenges in the face and take them on, one-by-one doesn't just make it easier for us to deal with problems later; it also makes the good times THAT much better.

I believe problems are good, well you say, “Ye she can say that, she isn’t going through what I am going through!!” but honestly think about it, these problems only want to toughen you up, while going through them in turn makes us learn discipline. It might help to think of our approach to problems as muscle building in our bodies, no? The more time we spend stretching and training and building our muscles, the more constructive and efficient it will be. That reminds me, when did I last Work Out? :P :P Dealing with problems requires the same sort of training.

The more challenges we successfully tackle, the easier they become. This month has helped me develop an internal buoyancy and elasticity, and the test that Life presents us with will help hammer all the skills the Universe has planned for US. Everything that is happening to us, right now is not new or not a bolt from the blue… they are premeditated and calculated in their own little ways, what is not thought off, is the way WE will react to them. December has been mostly an amalgamation of delays and setbacks for most people I know.

How I dealt with a sense of growing emptiness was I believe the best way! The Best way to deal with these energies is to hone all of my attention - at least to the extent possible - on one particular project. I have started showing extreme discipline and initiative with respect to this project of mine, this way till the time I achieve success, I have something to occupy my Mind and also ward off all alignments with all unwanted side effects as possible.

I need to fully appreciate and benefit from the lessons the Universe has thrown at me lately, this will in turn help me in fully understanding just my strengths and weaknesses are.

We all have an idea of who we are, but there are also aspects of our personality that are either forgotten or completely unknown. Taking my beloved professor this morning made me realize how many many aspects of my personality I have forgotten or hidden away deep down within me. I will need to uncover what the Universe considers are my greatest strengths and my greatest opportunities for improvement.

There is a definite need to regain a lot of my attributes and to retain at least a quarter of my impulsiveness and risk taking abilities… Well, so what if the Month is coming to a close in two days, the next year brings in 365 wonderful days for me to adapt, realign and acclimatize. Right?

FlashBACK time!

In exactly three days time, we will all be ushering in the New Year, with eyes filled with hope, anxiety and excitement at what is in store for all of us in the year 2011. New years is a time when everyone is eager to have an awesome time, be happy, enjoy, freak out, get drunk and DANCE!

But what do I do??? Lol I get into Flash back mode! Literally the Black and White zone! The last week of the year makes me go back in time and look back at the different happenings, achievements, lows, incidents and people in my life over the past one year. For me it is the time to thank God, people around me and count my blessings.

I dress in black and white color combination all through the last week of the year and let my memories be the ONLY color in my life. My memories are always in COLOR, in dark, intense, RAW hues! This year saw many RED memories – read angry/ unfortunate ones, a number of BLUE ones – read me ignoring things/people in life rather than confronting them, several PINK ones – read crushes and cupcakes! :P, more than a few BLACK Ones – read sad, depressing and melancholic ones and a lot many WHITE ones – read me playing Peacemaker and the agony aunt! I will get into all of that and more in the coming days.

Today… 28th December… 28th December 2010, has a lot of significance for me; or rather I would like it to be highly important to me. It is the day that makes me remember how strong a person I am, yes as you can see; I am in no Mood to be modest. :P It brings back memory of a mistake I had made in my life. Well actually I shouldn’t be calling it a blunder as if it weren’t for IT, I wouldn’t be the way I am, the person I am, I would be ME! It is Because of IT that I have come out much stronger and much nicer Human Being. (Well I definitely think SO! :P)

I have never once shared My black and White funda with any1, only this year do I feel that I should share with People whom I love and I care about and All people who care enough to read this SMALL blog of mine! :) I think its because I have matured a LOT in the past year.

Wearing black and white for the whole of the week makes me feel strong, makes me feel close to my immediate past and closer to my Future. This is my way of saying thank you to the Omnipotent and to the Year 2010.

• Thank you for showing me new highs and lows in life, making me learn not to EXPECT and to never to lay down expectations sooo strong and passionate that it is difficult to get them over them whenever they are not realized in the way I wanted them to.

• Thank you for showing me that I am not dependent on anyone for anything and that I can survive alone if need be, there have been so many many instances this year that I didn’t not vent out my frustrations as quickly as I used to. And that NO One in this world is indispensable, vital or absolutely essential for my survival other than my Mum, Appa, my Sis and My hero!

• Thank you for showing me how my I love my folks, how much I need them and how much they mean to me, daily for 362 (3 more days for the NEW YEAR yay!) days this year!

• Thank you for letting me accomplish a lot of things like creating my own little blog and now making my 55th entry this year! Its feels amazing to be able to have a platform where in I can key my feeling and emotions but not at the cost of boring a family member or close friend.

• Thank you for giving me an opportunity to handle a Project as prestigious and Big as GOOGLE itself so earlier in my career! Thank you for having faith in me and for supporting me throughout.

• Thank you for giving me sudden Work related surprise jerks and perks!

• Thank you for giving me Wonderful new friends who are addition in my Amazing life that you have gifted me, these new friends are beautiful, sincere and Oh.. so Protective! I love them!

• Thank you for giving me a choice in life, putting me on crossroads so that I can test my patience, mental capacity and endurance.

• Thank you for making me realize that I need to give Break to Dancing. That I need to STOP dancing for a while. I couldn’t be happier with my decision!

• Thank you for letting me learn that being in love needs to be treated like signing a contract, thinking about the pros and cons and then sealing it. It’s stupid to think that falling in love is like batting and eyelid and immediately having bells ringing in the background signaling you that HE/SHE is the ONE, NOT!

• Thank you for making me spiritually stronger and a stauncher believer in YOU and YOUR power!

I can continue writing like this forever, but that would get a tad boring now wouldn’t it, so I would rather stop now and come back soon… hopefully a few more entries in the black and white zone before I get flooded with the New Year celebration Frenzy.

Btw… Thank you! Appreciate IT!

Negative's Postive?

I want to address something pretty serious for a change! :P

Well you cannot blame me, the Year is coming to any end, and this is precisely THAT time of the year which marks a lot of fortunate – unfortunate, necessary – unnecessary, happy – unhappy feelings and thought process. I have been going through a multitude of them over the past few weeks but I haven’t been able to put them down because of excessive work load and hectic schedules of both mine as well as my friends. Yes, the happenings in our friend’s life affect us. They make us think… they make us experience different situations without actually being in them, right?

Today, I want to talk rather write about Negativity. We often talk about erasing negative beliefs, breaking through harmful thought patterns, and getting in Flow to help us move towards our goals. But this is often easier said than done. In fact I say, why should there be no negativity? There needs to be the presence of Negativity in Life in order to be able to appreciate and cherish the positivity.

How can we be grateful for Light when we have never suffered in the Darkness? How can we be pleased with our Success when we have not been depressed with our Failure?

No, I am Not saying we need to be Immerse ourselves in the ever failing darkness submerged by the negativity, but a fine blend, that would do wouldn’t it? A delicate balance, a beautiful amalgamation…Will this not result in something new, beautiful, sincere and genuine.

I have seen quite a few examples in the past week, No. 1 *Veena Malik* screaming, crying and howling at *Ashmit Patel* on Big Boss Season 4 (yes I am a FAN of BB4, so what? :P) and my close friend, Sachu who just got a very well deserved raise after having slogged out for such a long time.

Veena getting upset with Ashmit and the simultaneous battle of words and flying sandals ended with them hugging and kissing each other before the end of the day! How would they know how much the cared for each other, how much they like/love each other, how much they mean to each other without them having gone through these numerous fights that they do? They maybe scripted and rehearsed for all I care, but what I am talking about is the intricate nuances of Human Nature, Our Inner Identity!

My friend and I use to curse, bad mouth and spew venom at his Employer, for having treated him unfairly, but the minute the Raise came through, my heart swelled with happiness, gratitude and pride! After all they were noticing his hard work and did reward him albeit a bit late! *Better LATE than NEVER!* That IS the Banana Talk, Right Sachu? :P Congratulations Buddy! :D

Inside each of us is an “outline” that defines who we are. It governs everything from our weight, our height our confidence, our money mindset and how we deal with loved ones.

I call this Outline the "True Inner Personality". It's the mental map within our subconscious that makes us "US".

Almost all Personal Issues, Public events, problems, situations, trials, tribulations that we face are different creative visualizations designed by GOD Almighty to help US shape and mold this "True Inner Identity". Because whatever aspect of this Outline we change 'within' US, changes the exterior real world US as well.

So let’s quit saying Bad things about Negatives in Life! If it weren’t for Negativity, we would have been so positive! :D