Matters of the HEART!!!

I always mentioned, maintained and felt I was born in the Wrong era… A Little LATE!

I am prone to think it would have been so great if I was born a little earlier when life was simpler, uncomplicated and most of all in a World wherein I would FIT in perfectly, with my inherent old fashioned views.

I have issues, I don’t think the way most people my age do, I don’t talk in the fashion most of my friends do, I tend to think a lot, sometimes rational sometimes irrational… No I don’t mean to say that my Friends DON’T think!! Lol… That’s not for me to say, is it? :P But seriously… Its ME... I am slightly Cuckoo in the Head! I tend to over scrutinize and delve upon things a LOT more than actually necessary. But you know what I like it that way and you will know why in a bit!

The other day having a conversation with my close friend Sachu, he mentioned "You think a lot, from different aspects, and that I take decisions with my Mind and not my heart!"… Uhmm… Is it true?

I always thought and wanted to be able to listen to my Heart more…

Maybe I listen to my Mind more than my heart, because I don’t want to show people how I feel and only show people what I think, most of the time that is precisely what I do. This is solely because I have noticed that people are not really interested in knowing what exactly or how exactly I feel in tandem to any given topic. I definitely think so. I walk up to my mum, try talking to her, hearing my point of discussion, she simply exclaims… “Ohh, Its one of those attacks isnt it?? You have gone mad again... Go and tell your father, please!” Telling My Father, That!…. Yes… He will listen, yup he will… but he won’t react, he will smile and look at me, and say "You know when you were a kid, you used to wear short skirt and run behind like a little puppy following his master…" so what do I tell him… Turn to my brother, he says… "You want to express your feeling, please blog it, we are in no mood to hear your stuff!" Ahh… so much for loving your brother! :P

For Example, Right now my heart is totally at PEACE… yes complete Peace but My mind, My brain is racing, it is Tensed!! Confused and perplexed to be precise… Well anyone’s would when they come to know that their Pictures are been used by some Jobless retards to create a Fake Facebook ID and the tension might reach the point of a Heart attack when one would read the Slimy, cheesy, sexual explicit comments to the Picture… But my Heart believes its okay and everything would end nicely. How and Why I don’t know… But obliviously I can’t show that, can I? Because If I do, people would think I am definitely INSANE no?

I most definitely have to project what my brain has decided for me. My brain had decided it is wrong; you need to get tensed, perplexed and ACT! Which is definitely rational and expected, right? SO how can my Brain be wrong? :)

My Heart is very very volatile, fickle and explosive. It reacts fast and cools down equally fast. If it were for my heart I would still be friends with a lot of people, I would still be getting hurt by them, still be taken for granted and still be extreme!

But I am less crazy because of my Mind! My Mind stabilizes me, makes me look at the pros and cons in life, weigh the positives and negatives and act accordingly. This Blog entry is basically an attempt to pacify my System and bring it somewhere close to a delicate balance so that I can completely get over the Psychologically ILL, Imprudent and dim-witted person who tried to carry out an identity THEFT, that too of MINE!! If it weren’t for my brain I would have actually felt sorry for the obliviously unfortunate looking person instead of thinking about myself and my credibility!

It is often said that being true to yourself is following your heart… I guess I am Not all that TRUE to myself and I am GLAD!!